Dreams

Don't you just hate those dreams that are so scary when you wake up you can't even move. I had one of those this morning and I'm still feeling anxious and jittery from it. After Charlie left for work this morning I had one of the most realistic, scary, emotion-draining dream I've had in a long long time.

In my dream Charlie and I were heading home from somewhere with the boys. As we turned onto our street we could see there was a car parked near our house with some guys in it. As we parked and got out these guys got out of their cars too. Charlie went around back (the house was different) with Brendan and left me out front (?????) with Carter. I think there were 4 guys and they were standing with me at the front door and let me tell you...these weren't Boy Scouts....yikes... I told one of the guys that Charlie was coming through the back to open the door (????) and he just sneered at me and pulled out a gun. So yeah...this is a great dream huh? Charlie comes through the house and lets the guys in...they said they are robbing us and we'd better leave. So we hurry to the car and take off. As we're driving off we call Holly (my sister-in-law who is a cop) but I'm not sure if we ever got a hold of her or the police. Anyways, we're driving around, panicking, not sure what to do. After awhile we think it must be safe to go back to the house...WRONG..they are still there!! They see our car and one of the guys comes out screaming, yelling, waving a gun around....so of course we keep driving...we're all freaking out because these scary guys know our car, our house, etc...so we decide to go to my mom's house because the guys don't know where she lives. We spent the night there...
The rest of the dream is a little fuzzy, I just remember going back to the house after a lot of time went by, the police came, the house was empty, police left and we settled in for the night. I was SO scared. I didn't care about the stuff they took....just scared that they would come back for us since we knew what they looked like. We all slept in one room all crowded but at least we were together. Charlie had to leave for work or something but I guess I had lots of guy friends staying with us to protect me. All of that was a little hazy but I just remember being so scared, crying, holding onto my babies....

whew...that helped a little to post. I prayed as soon as I woke up for peace and its taken a little while but I think I'll be okay. I know God has His hand of protection on us and I am not a scared person in real life. I completely trust Him and know we are safe. The world is scary though and there is always the possibility of something happening. I try not to dwell on that too much. I don't want to be a paranoid person.

Thanks for "listening"! I don't usually use this space other than pictures but I just felt like I needed to write this out for processing.